“Your mind is falsely creating significance for the insignificant, and meaning for the meaningless”. zen Jungle
Decisions made by others, decisions made by circumstances, releasing in the empowerment of decisions made by self.
It really doesn't matter any more, sets me free.
Conditioned into habits as well as learned behaviour, of having to do rather than wanting to do, became an entrapment of confusion as well as deep unhappiness.
The creation of meaning and significance on top of something that simply is.This habitual attachment of meaning then creates a situation where we want and chase things, fear, and avoid things, and endless overthinking, and worry about either what may happen that hasn't already or what has already happened in the past.
What could ever happen to me that really matters, I am here for no time at all, and simply for the experience and serve others.There is no right way or wrong way of doing that experience. Ideas and opinions are meaningless and only the experience itself really matters, that's when attaching meaning stops where there is none and stops creating significance for the insignificant. I am set free and realise that it really doesn't matter.
Having found the reset button that was hiding, or simply the refusal of me seeing it, I am turning the focus on me. Emphasising on being in the moment just now. Tuning into being mindful with every daily task. My heartbeat slows to a normal steady beat. Releasing that sense of calm and peace.
I am starting to understand that I am lucky to have been given this moment.
I can keep on complaining or being joyous, and appreciative. I am here for this moment, and it is up to me to choose how I want to live it, and to choose the side I want to focus on. In the daily circumstances , one can find meaning and understanding, realising that this is where I am meant to be for now.
I am choosing to be appreciative and thankful, being embraced by nature.